Unladylike
I used to
wrap my entire
mouth around
the top of a plastic water bottle.
carelessly slipping my tongue
in and out
of the opening.
I’d suck all the air out
of the bottle
until it
would make that
crinkling sound
and shrivel up in my hand.
I used to sit
with my legs
stretched out
unafraid to take up
space
My skirt would
ride up my thighs
causing my pink
unicorn underwear
to be slightly visible
as I sat on the rough concrete
drawing with chalk.
Now I sit in hard baked chairs
and wear tea length dresses
with stockings,
ankles crossed--
trying to take up
the least
amount
of
space
possible
I cower when someone walks
by and brushes up against
my dry unshaved leg,
apologizing profusely
that I wasn’t small
enough for them.
I drink out of breakable
china glasses now.
made from porcelain
or glass
lips tenderly
kiss
leaving behind traces
of deep red lipstick
The cup is damp
Sweating, profusely as if
nervous to receive my caress
my pinky naturally
lifts to avoid the wetness
I’m praised
for drinking
so ladylike